Driver

by Michael Braunfeld

Released 2019
Blind Justice Music
Released 2019
Blind Justice Music
  • 04:26 Lyrics Driver

    Take this shroud off of me I ain’t done yet

    Take these shackles off my legs let me do what I do best

    My heart my head my soul possessed

    I don’t know if I’m cursed or blessed

     

    All the things you ever tried to tell me

    Are somewhere spinning around with all the other words          

    And the only thing I ever wanted to be

    Somehow seems suddenly absurd

     

    And I feel just like a driver

    That’s gotten lost along these roads

    Waiting for some kind of direction

    That could ease my worried soul

    Take me in and give me shelter

    From the pleasure and the pain

    ‘Cause I don’t even have the sense

    To come in out of the rain

     

    It’s so quiet right now I can hear the hurt

    I’m pacing never ending circles into this sacred earth

    And you don’t know the shape I’m in

    I’m out for blood I came to win

     

    And all the things you said just to try to heal me

    Are somewhere spinning around with all the other words

    And the only thing that ever mattered to me

    Somehow just never came in first

     

    And I feel just like a driver

    That’s gotten lost along these roads

    Waiting for some kind of direction

    That could ease my worried soul

    Take me in and give me shelter

    From the pleasure and the pain

    ‘Cause I don’t even have the sense

    To come in out of the rain

     

    This whole town was lit by lightning

    And these songs just break my heart

    I always try to do the right thing

    But it’s so hard when we’re apart

     

    So let me lie out in the sun and smoke my cigarettes

    Let me drink this glass of whiskey and think on what ain’t come yet

    Get it out of my head and off of my chest

    I don’t know if I’m cursed or blessed

  • 03:39 Lyrics Breathe

    Look at you in your ripped-up jeans

    Your wife beater and your nicotine

    You thought of nearly everything

    To be the man that you believe

     

    Black boots and slicked-back hair

    A young rebel too cool to care

    In war and words everything’s fair

    And you wear it on your sleeve

     

    Everything about you is so matter of fact

    So serious you’re a heart attack

    Always moving forward never looking back

    Cause you can’t comprehend

    What’s coming next

    What’s coming next

     

    Storing up your dreams in a gasoline can

    Trying to set the world on fire again

    Every single night is your last stand

    And you can’t even bear to breathe

     

    Hey there Mister Gloom and Doom

    Getting high in the afternoon

    And X-rated in the green room

    With a girl you hardly know

     

    You think that you’re the next Van Zandt

    All the girls really love your band

    But the men think you’re just a pissant

    Even after they’ve seen the show

     

    And maybe you believe ‘em and maybe you don’t

    Only time will tell if you will or you won’t

    You feel something stirring in your blood and your bones

    But you can’t comprehend

    What’s coming next

    What’s coming next

     

    Storing up your dreams in a gasoline can

    Trying to set the world on fire again

    Every single night is your last stand

    And you can’t even bear to breathe

     

    It’s so easy to be you

    There ain’t a damn thing else that you can do

     

    Storing up your dreams in a gasoline can

    Trying to set the world on fire again

    Every single night is your last stand

    And you can’t even bear to breathe

     

    No you can’t even bear to breathe

  • 03:29 Lyrics Maline

    Baby don’t this kind of living turn you on

    Up all night and wheels up at dawn

    You just listen to that engine whining on just like a song

    Baby don’t this kind of living turn you on

     

    It’s a long hard road from San Antone to home

    Sometimes you gotta make it on your own

    Some nights when you lie down all you feel is all alone

    It’s a long hard road from San Antone to home

     

    Oh Maline there’s something you should know

    It’s good to win but it’s the heart that matters most

     

    It’s a young man’s game at least that’s what they say

    But young men don’t always have that much to say

    I’ve listened to the songs man and they all sound the same

    It’s a young man’s game at least that’s what they say

     

    But I was just boy when I started down this road

    And I ain’t getting any younger now you know

    Now I’m broke and I am broken and I’m 41 years old

    But I was just a boy when I started down this road

     

    Oh Maline there’s something you should know

    It’s good to win but it’s the heart that matters most

    Some nights you gotta fake it if you can

    Try to kick the footlights out again

    And it just ain’t what you need but it just ain’t there in your hands

    Some nights you gotta fake it if you can

     

    In a world where truth is hardly ever found

    And voices rising up don’t make a sound

    Folks are looking for a savior to come on back around

    In a world where truth is hardly ever found

     

    Oh Maline there’s something you should know

    It’s good to win but it’s your heart that matters most

    Get in the game

    And give it all you’ve got

    Girl take aim

    And always take your shot

  • 04:18 Lyrics Stay

    We met in the springtime of ‘94

    In the parking lot out back behind the record store

    You were there with a friend but you seemed so alone

    I asked if maybe I could take you home

     

    And we jumped in my car turned onto the street

    My foot on the gas your hand on my knee

    You said you were wild that you had no fear

    I’d have told you whatever you wanted to hear

     

    So you’d stay stay

    In the blink of an eye

    The wreck of my life

    Was ablaze

     

    And all through that summer we were never apart

    The dog days of August burned as hot as my heart

    You taught me to smoke you taught me to drink

    You taught me to love and you taught me to think

     

    Then you told me one morning you had something to say

    Your dad had a new job you were moving away

    I cried and I cried I thought I would die

    I couldn’t believe we’d be saying goodbye

     

    Won’t you stay stay

    In the blink of an eye

    The wreck of my life

    Was ablaze

     

    Then you dropped out of school ‘cause you thought it was best

    You headed off to a new life out in the Midwest

    There was talk of a baby that never arrived

    But there was a boy and a pair of black eyes

     

    So I wired you money for a bus out of there

    My folks put you up in the bedroom upstairs

    I’d hoped you stick around I was trying to help

    You were searching for something trying to find yourself

     

    Oh stay stay

    In the blink of an eye

    The wreck of my life

    Was ablaze

     

    I’ve long since married and I’ve settled down

    I heard you did the same in another town

    With houses and spouses and kids of our own

    I’m happy I hope you are with the life you have sewn

     

    But your first love is special and when you are young

    It’s bold it helps mold you into who you will become

    I think of you sometimes at the end of a day

    And I wonder what might have been if you had stayed

  • 04:26 Lyrics This Town

    This town was in a movie once 55 years ago

    And everyone still clings to it like religion and all they know

    There’s the theater they all ran from the diner where they ate

    Still bragging from an old billboard just off the inner state

     

    Now the factories have shut down the stores are shuttered up

    And Main Street’s just a place to go when you need to fill her up

    There’s hookers on the corners the cops just walk their beats

    They’re cooking meth in an abandoned house at Bridge and Ashland Streets

     

    This town’s got nothing on which to borrow

    The good old days are good and gone

    This town will still be here tomorrow

    But I’m packing up my things and moving on

     

    My old man he’s still hanging in though he’s getting on in years

    He’s still standing tall behind his bar pouring shots and slinging beers

    And he still talks a tough man’s game though he’s starting to feel his age

    Yeah he’s a bit more than forgetful when he talks about the good old days

     

    And I know that I once promised you back when we were kids

    That I’d stay with you forever and for a while that’s what I did

    But I’m getting out tomorrow you can come with me or not

    It’ll be my first time anywhere and I reckon my last shot

     

    This town’s got nothing on which to borrow

    The good old days are good and gone

    This town will still be here tomorrow

    But I’m packing up my things and moving on

     

    It’s all I’ve got but I just can’t take no more

    I’m pouring drinks at 10:00 a.m.

    All the has-beens and the have-nots

    Will open up the door and wonder where I am

     

    This town’s got nothing on which to borrow

    The good old days are good and gone

    This town will still be here tomorrow

    But I’m packing up my things and moving on

     

    Yes I’m packing up my dreams and I’ll be gone

  • 04:18 Lyrics Blues Ain't Nothin'

    The blues ain’t nothin’ but a feeling

    It’s been with me my whole life

    Sometimes I’m dancing on the ceiling

    Sometimes I’m holding on for life

    The ups and downs the highs and lows

    The in-betweens there ain’t no place else to go

     

    The blues ain’t nothn’ at all

    You put your fists up

    When your back’s against the wall

    And fight like hell

    From the bottom of the well

    Give it your best

    Give it your all

    The blues ain’t nothin’ at all

     

    The blues ain’t nothin’ but some color

    I’ve been green and I’ve seen red

    But they can get you like no other

    And leave you wishing that you were dead

    Days they come and days they go

    And in between you just get yourself up and go

     

    The blues ain’t nothn’ at all

    You put your fists up

    When your back’s against the wall

    And fight like hell

    From the bottom of the well

    Give it your best

    Give it your all

    The blues ain’t nothin’ at all

     

    Don’t it make you wanna shake your head

    All those days that you just can’t get out of bed

     

    The blues ain’t nothin’ at all

    You put your fists up

    When your back’s against the wall

    And fight like hell

    From the bottom of the well

    Give it your best

    Give it your all

    The blues ain’t nothin’ at all

     

    The blues ain’t nothing but a warning

    Of how far you have to fall

    The blues ain’t nothin’

    The blues ain’t nothin’

    The blues ain’t nothin’ at all

  • 03:38 Lyrics Philip Hoffman Is Dead (Nika)

    A heavy snow from two days ago covered the leaves and the grass

    A heavy snow from two days ago covered the leaves and the grass

    And an ice storm this morning sheathed all the branches in glass

     

    And in the cold light of day the wind turned wood into chime

    In the cold light of day the wind turned wood into chime

    And an ice-covered landscape appeared to be frozen in time

     

    A stout silver maple came down with a crack and a crash

    A stout silver maple came down with a crack and a crash

    Now tinder and timber and soon to be cinders and ash

     

    And I think to myself as my lungs breathe in brisk burning air

    Yes I think to myself as my lungs breathe in brisk burning air

    That the burden of beauty can be too much for one life to bear

  • 04:32 Lyrics 40 Below

    Around here we don’t expect too much

    There ain’t enough to go around

    A little pay and a little luck

    A beer to wash it down

     

    I came up here to Ward County

    North Dakota and

    For ten long years I’ve been a deputy

    In this frozen prairie land

     

    It ain’t nothin’ much to laugh at

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

     

    It was the kind of place where your neighbors all wave

    And everybody is your friend

    They know your business your secrets your name

    And how your mama’s been

     

    Time was I’d get two calls a night

    If Tim and Donna got too loud

    Otherwise it was just bustin’ up a fight

    When a roughneck got too proud

     

    It ain’t nothin’ much to laugh at

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

     

    The boom hit in the Bakken Field

    Like and overflowing cup

    That oil and money changed the whole damn deal

    And this sleepy town woke up

     

    Folks come in in search of something

    A new job or a new life

    Ain’t no tellin’ what they bring in

    But more people means more strife

     

    It ain’t nothin’ much to laugh at

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

     

    Them out-of-state plates keep rollin’ in

    And there’s girls in the motels

    Now we got meth and we got heroin

    From the Sinaloa Cartel

     

    Got 110 in an 80 bed jail

    And we can’t afford to feed ‘em

    The company just pays the bail

    And we can’t afford to beat ‘em

     

    It ain’t nothin’ much to laugh at

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

     

    We teach our kids it ain’t a sin to be poor

    You work hard you stay afloat

    But it ain’t easy when the wolves are at your door

    And the devil’s got your throat

     

    It ain’t nothin’ much to laugh at

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

     

    Used to be 40-below kept out the riff-raff

  • 03:10 Lyrics A Winter's Wish

    Old dreams long forgotten for the family to see

    Like so much silver tinsel strewn about the tree

    Gifts are piled in a ring underneath the branches

    Here’s to new beginnings and all those lost chances

     

    The old dog don’t run no more and he’s just lying there

    The cat’s on his blanket all he does is stare

    The kids are nearly grown they’ve got their whole lives

    Here’s to this happy home well most of the time

     

    Here’s to the ones we love and the ones who ain’t around

    To mercy for the sinners who were lost but now are found

    Cheers to the ones who are here and the ones that we let go

    Sing a song that meant something to you once long ago

     

    You say a prayer if you believe and then you say amen

    I miss so many people that I’ll never see again

    Some moved on and some have passed some live upon the wind

    Here’s to making it last and taking it on the chin

     

    There’s snow out on the meadow the sky’s a’turning dark

    And all the people that surround me here I love with all my heart

    So open up those presents now quick as quick can be

    Here’s to the here and now to friends and family

     

    Here’s to the ones we love and the ones who ain’t around

    To mercy for the sinners who were lost but now are found

    Cheers to the ones who are here and the ones that we let go

    Sing a song that meant something to you once long ago

     

    Sing a song that meant something to you once long ago

  • 04:41 Lyrics Washed Away

    They’re boarding up the windows

    Of the stores that are still around

    They’re getting ready for a big storm

    In this little seaside town

    Where folks still fight the good fight

    Against hard weather and hard luck

    Hard times came again and some gave in

    Some are giving up

     

    All of our lives we have been told

    How our families came to this land

    The American Dream the American Way

    They said that the streets were paved with gold

    Soon they’ll be buried in muck and sand

    All that glitters washed away

     

    I went down to Alex Campbell’s

    To help him with his place

    He was pulling out of the driveway

    And putting on a brave face

    He said “I’m just trying to provide for my daughter

    I’m just trying to make it

    As far as this house goes it’s already under water

    Let Sandy take it”

     

    All of our lives we have been told

    How our families came to this land

    The American Dream the American Way

    They said that the streets were paved with gold

    Soon they’ll be buried in muck and sand

    All that glitters washed away

     

    As the banks that hold the water start to disappear

    The banks that hold the notes start closing in

    It’s always been tough to make a go of it here

    But these days it seems like you just can’t win

     

    All of our lives we have been told

    How our families came to this land

    The American Dream the American Way

    They said that the streets were paved with gold

    Soon they’ll be buried in muck and sand

    All that glitters washed away

     

    Washed away

    Washed American Way

  • 04:46 Lyrics Fear

    What would you do if I told you I loved you

    Would you turn and walk away

    ‘Cause I’ve had nights when I felt like dying

    I never know just what to say

     

    But it feels so right now

    It feels so good

    To know that we could

    Take it all the way

     

    And I can be strong enough to get you through a rainy day

    I can be soft enough to make you feel this way

    I’ll carry your fear on my back ‘til you tell me that it’s safe

    Take me in your heart take me all the way

     

    All of those times when I felt so helpless

    I fell down on my knees

    Praying that you would one day notice

    And fall in love with me

     

    I can’t promise this will work out

    But I promise to try

    To take you up so high

    And take you all the way

     

    And I can be strong enough to get you through a rainy day

    I can be hard enough to make you feel this way

    I’ll carry your fear on my back ‘til you tell me that it’s safe

    Take me in your heart take me all the way

     

    Because I’ve laid down my life for your love so many times

    And deep inside I’m just as scared as you

    I’d give you my heart my soul my trust and my rhymes

    Oh baby I’m just so in love with you

     

    And I can be strong enough to get you through a rainy day

    I can be soft or hard just to make you feel this way

    I’ll carry your fear on my back ‘til you tell me that it’s safe

    Take me in your heart

    Yeah take me in your heart

    And all the way

     

    What would you do if I told you I loved you

  • 04:37 Lyrics Wonder

    This used to be a town

    The crumbling factories the broken homes

    Now when I walk around

    I pretend that they’re the ruins of Rome

    I’m on the honeymoon we still ain’t been on yet

    And just like that I’m back at our front step

    And I wonder where you are

     

    Now lately you come home

    Later and later every night

    And I know you’re not alone

    But I’m too scared to ask you why

    You sneak up the steps and look in on the kids

    And in the dark undress and slip on into bed

    And wonder if I’m up

     

    My life is like I’m reading some old mystery

    My eyes so tired I cannot read the text

    So I turn out the light and close my eyes and try to sleep

    And wonder what comes next

     

    Monday morning’s on the skids

    I take the Charger to the shop

    You’ve had that car since we were kids

    You used to try to outrun the cops

    And in the parking lot behind the A&P

    We made love for the first time in the backseat

    Now I wonder what she’s got left

     

    We had it all figured out

    When all we ever had were dreams

    A couple kids and a house

    And we had it all or so it seemed

    From playing high school ball to working for your dad

    I guess those dreams were all we ever really had

    And I wonder is this all

     

    My life is like I’m reading some old mystery

    My eyes so tired I cannot read the text

    So I turn out the light and close my eyes and try to sleep

    And wonder what comes next

     

    These days they pull me in and pull me under

    And I’m staring at these trains all headed west

    My heart begins to pound just like thunder

    And I wonder what comes next

  • 00:47 Lyrics You Go On

    You go on without me

    I am so tired I am so tired

    All these sleepless nights and restless days

    Nothing makes me better

    Or better than you

    Nothing is so bitter as the truth

    All I want is this old guitar

    And a woman who can love me